One of the big things that I added to my life’s to do list when I was going through my major anxiety time period was to not box myself in with the same routine over and over again (because it’s really easy to do that since routine makes you feel safe) but to keep trying and doing new things, and having new experiences.
In light of this promise to myself (and lets face it some days I succeed at it and some days I don’t) these are some of the things that I’ve done:
1. Flown to North Carolina for a friend’s wedding. This was the first trip that I went on out of country with friends and no “adults” for all that I was 26 and an adult. Talk about having a FINALLY moment.
2. Road tripped with my sister to Montreal to see comedian Danny Bhoy, who was hilarious.
3. Went to New York City for the first time to see one of my favourite comedians Russell Howard, and to see the city. Russell Howard was totally worth the drive, but I didn’t really like New York City.
4. Went to London, England and Wales, with a friend of mine and had a completely amazing time. I didn’t want to leave, and I want to go back.
4. Started playing some fantasy hockey and and fantasy football. I came second in my fantasy hockey league last year, and I’m determined to come in first this year. This is the first year I’ve played fantasy football, and I’m doing pretty good so far too.
5. Reconnected with some old friends who have become some of my core people. We’re actually driving to Niagara-on-the-Lake this weekend to shop and hit up some wineries.
6. Reading more, (hopefully) blogging more, being more conscientious of having “me time” so that I can chill and refocus myself and have that inner zen going on.
Things that I want to implement/get better at doing consistently in the future:
1. Exercise. I’m going to attempt to quit my gym membership tomorrow because I haven’t gone since February…maybe January…and it’s expensive. But the plan is that once I quit I sign up for a zumba pass at this place where my friend goes, because it’s fun, and maybe yoga too. (Once again for that inner zen business). It’ll also be cheaper than my gym membership. Yay saving money!
2. Writing more. I feel better after I write. I use to keep journals all the time, but I’ve gotten away from it the last couple of years. I find that journalling allows me to get all of the noise, thoughts, worries etc out of my head and onto paper where they just don’t seem as big or terrifying. I find that writing is something that just simply brings me joy and I’m all about finding the joy in life and holding onto it.
3. Keep trying new things, having fun experiences and finding the joy. I’m going to a pre-season hockey game next week with my friend Jason, I have tickets to see Cirque du Soleil in October with some of my family, and 4 of my favourite romance authors have books coming out in the next 2 months which means staying up late to read 🙂
The point is, I’m realizing, is to find things that I like to do and do them – not get caught up in my own head worrying about everything or being afraid of something. I’ve also realized that if I’m afraid to do something it probably means I should give it a go (within reason, obviously) because as the Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood says, “no one got anywhere by being scared all the time.”